FLY LIKE THE BALLOON.

PWEDE BAH??

Another tiring day, today we chose our clubs and ENGLISH and Sporsts club ako.. Hindi ko naman talaga sila choice si Sarah kasi nanghihila anyway ok lng naman at least kasama ko sila. Ayan na naman ako nababaliw. We are the one's responsible for our acts,, sometimes nadadala tayo sa nararamdaman natin not even considering others feelings na nasasaktan na natin sila. Sometimes I just want to give up kaya lng naiisip ko meron pa rin namang mas mamalas sakin and lot of people care about me. Hindi ko nga lang sila nararamdaman and inaapreciate, alam ko naman kasi n lagi naman sila nandyan para skin (ASA!). It's human Nature na sa huli na lang nagsisisi and hindi na mawawala ang pag-iisip sa sarili. Sometimes we are being skin deep na basta na lng ganyan.. I don't know what's happening. Hindi na mawawala na paninindigan mo n mali ka at minsan hindi mo na pag-iisipan basta ganon na lang bigla. I hate it napakaGAGA ko talaga lagi na lang pinapaandar kabobohan.. huhu SANA tumino na utak ko naguguluhan na ko sa ikot ng mundo.. Ang hirap ng lessons, ang gulo sa bahay, sama mo na personal problems at mga kababawan.. Akala ko I'm matured enough para maintindihan ang mga nangyayari pero I guess I'm wrong hindi ko talaga maintindihan... I guess I can't be what you want me to be, I know a little of this stuffs at nahihirapan talaga ako . I'm sorry for disappointing you..

AWANIG ANAS AN OK ID GNAL OK MALA GNUK

OKA AN NAHULUGUGAN, AN YRROS

AYDASANIS NAMAN OK IDNIH

A Day with him a big disaster

Yesterday we had our classes at the AVR and also today,, nakakalungkot naman bukas sa room na naman. Mainit na naman.. huhu.. Anyway it's Wednesday again and Earl went to our school. Kinakarir ko na ang pagiging independent girl. Kagabi nagrereminisce ako namimiss ko na sila AYAN NA NAMAN lungkot mode.. Anyway hindi na ako teary eyed coz kalelesson lang ni Sir MELVZ tungkol sa fear and somehow I learn from it. I have to move on and even I'm starting to be numb what else can I do. I'm tired of crying, I dont wanna see myself so sad and I'm looking freakishly pathetic. When he came I wanna to go home,, sama ko talaga ewan ko ba.. Effect of being independent??? Independent girl sobra ka na ata! Pero parang wala lang tlga sakin.. what's happening but I'm sure wala akong iba. No 3rd parties ok!

We still dont have our math teAcher so Mam. Sdilla decided to make Mam. Bataller our temporary teacher for Advance Algebra and Mr. Capiral for statistics. Beside from the punisher Neon and Helium will also combine so.. Helium + Neon = HeLLeon. From the start of school year we have a problem with the classroom's temperature and I hope it'll be fix someday.. wishing Moving on I'm still trying to play guitar but still not good ehehe...

Sad Story

Last Friday our batch evictees came and I’m really happy. This past days was really lonely even our teachers can see it. Our rooms are quiet and full of sad faces. As I wake up everyday and walk CCSHS’s corridors everyday I still remember memories of my deliberated friend and it is evident that I still can’t move on from the incident. I’m trying my best to adapt on my new world and it’s really hard to do so. I could still remember Jose owing 5 pesos every week, Kervin who greets me almost every school days, Bart na nanghihingi ng kinakain mo, si Raphael na maangas pumorma, Justin who always sings with me, Jerome na kasundo ko pagdating sa Arts, and si Earl na panggulo kahit masungit k na. There are lot of changes like pagumuuwi ako wala na naghahatid sakin, meron man bihira lang. Actually Earl went to our house after they went to school, I really don’t want him to go para kasing ayoko siya umalis agad kasi tagal na namin hindi nagkita. When he was playing with my brother I was kind of teary-eyed that’s why asked him to go before tears rush down my face. When Paula, Jan And I went to Kenny Rogers to eat actually Paula and Jan only, I’m only watching them Jan asked me if he could sit beside me but I refuse I said I don’t want anybody to sit beside me sabi nga niya reminiscing old times before kasi apat kami ngayon tatlo na lang but sometimes proxy si Kevin. It is so hard although we don’t break up it is hard if you’re apart especially if your so much attached to each other. Poor me, little by little I’m learning to be independent anyway I’m independent before.

Yesterday we went to SM MALL of ASIA and it didn’t turn out like what I’m expecting although it is big I still like SM NORTH EDSA more, the mall built is like Glorietta combined with Greenbelt style which I think is cool. There are lots of people esp. by standers and it’s really hard to walk. I saw Aicelle Santos and she sang ALL THE MAN THAT I NEED which is my personal favorite because the song really fits me. I saw Chynna Ortaleza too, one of my idols too. Conclusion I don’t like the mall there are still lot of stoles unoccupied and a lot of eateries but I like the Ice skating Rink although I don’t skate and one thing that I like the most is the air-conditioning because even though there are lots of people the mall is still very cold. Here are some photos captured yesterday.

BREATH DEEP

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

Third Day High

It's our third day and I'm feeling the pressure now. The result of our English pre-test was very low but still I'm not the lowest (whew). Anyway loads of requirements to buy, many novels to read (hating it), more notebooks to cover, and portfolio to make. I'm really busy and almost forget my friends and so worried about time. In fact, I have my planner with me ehehe.. I'm pushing myself to my limits and so determine to improve and probably step into this year top ten.. How I wish! It's our first lesson day and I found MATH really hard eventhough we are starting to basic Calculus it's really confusing (whatta!). And Mrs. Avila being so demanding and Mr. Navarro too.. Mr. Fornoles who have a drownsy technique. Well, no matter what I do I have to listen to them. I hope I can go on with the flow.. How I wish, how I wish.. *peace*

666

This day really sucks, its our pre-test today although it's not recorded I'm dissapointed if I had a low score. I'm not the lowest of course but still low, in our case it is still passing. I expect to have low score in English its really hard. I'm not really into literature but I have no choice. Except for pre-test there is this guy who also ruined my day his name is RYAN CALDERON??? I dont know what's with him but he's messing with me.. He was really lucky that I'm in a good mood so our conversation end up good. Shabby, Shabby curse him.. Everyone is irritated w/ him. I dont really like people like him,playing mysterious.. duh.. this day is really bad luck! damn!

Again

I went to my school and this is our first day. I saw many new people esp. Freshies they occupy 3 classrooms and new teachers. I met my old friends and it's really really boring coz all students left are serious and some kind of nerdie, its different this last 2 years coz know my room lacks jolly and naughty people. Waah!!!

My first impression to my new teachers:
1. Mrs. Avila - so demanding and I think really strict but cool and a lil joker.
2. Mr. PAnganiban - kind-hearted??? but I think he is fun to be with.
3. Mrs. Roxas - Cleanliness is a must, strict also.
4. Ms. Su - Next Ms. Abby??

I expect Chemistry, Physics and Math to be very hard.. but Mr. Tolentino will still be our teacher for a month so thumbs up! It's a big change after the disaster but I need to move on and make a change.. How I wish I'll improve but I think I'll be more active this year., ;P

SWING,SWING

I changed my blogskin because yesterday Earl finally talked to me and my loneliness now deceived... I'm really happy that's why I came up with a fairytale like skin which I think is really cool. I'm not doing anything so it's easy to change skins ehehe..And my other friend blogger also changed their skins, get to the flow. 2 days before school I'm really excited, I really miss my classmates. just sharin' *peace*

Being serious bout love.. *senti Mode*

It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you really feel. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care 4 that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be & you just have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another opens but sometimes we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind u can just be with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling lyk it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've benn missing until it arrives. Giving sum1 all ur love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return -- just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things you'd love to hear that u will would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from -- but dont be so deaf as not to hear it from the 1 who says it from their heart. Never say good-bye if you still want to try -- never give up if you still feel u can go on -- never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope, although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've been hurt b4, and to those who have the courage and faith to build trust again. It takes only a minute to get a crush on sum1, an hour to like sum1, and a day to love sum1 -- but it takes a lifetym to forget sum1. Don go for looks; they decieve. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for sum1 who makes u smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seems bright. There are moments in lyf when u miss sum1 so much that u just want to pick them from ur dreams and hug them 4 real! Dream what u want to dream; go where u want to go; be what u want to be, bcoz u have only one lyf on this Earth, and one chance to do all the things u want to do. Always put urself in other persons shoes. If you feel that it hurts u, it probably hurts the other people too. A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless. The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twist them with our own image -- otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them. (Is that me??)The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried -- for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a kiss, and ends with a tear. The brightest future will alaways be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of ur past failures and heartaches. (MARY remember that) When u were born, you were crying and every1 around u was smiling. Live ur life so that when u die, you're the one who is smiling and every1 around u is crying. Its also amazing how easy it is to see all the seven wonders. This includes Egypt's great pyramids, Taj Mahal, Grand Canyon, Panama Canal, Empire State building, St. Peter's Basilica, China's Great Wall.. but we fail to see the REAL seven Wonders of the world. And that is to see, to hear, to touch, to taste, to feel, to laugh, and to love.