And because of that, ang lungkot ko tuloy tapos nagalit ako kay tubby.. I grew up a loner so if someone is enthusiastic about my problem I find them weird and irritating. I must be so shallow pero somehow it helps me to be strong, well I am strong super! and because of this we ended up deciding that we should have a cool off (tama ba?) . I hear this word almost everyday so when he suggested it, I quickly said yes just to cut the crap because I dont want to force myself to be happy and I dont want him to see how I distort my life because of this someone. Although I always love to try new things and be best at everything I do, I'm a girl who hates complexities. So when I put all this things together.....

studies + family + friends (s***!) + him = disaster (run for cover)

before we end up our last conversation we have conditions like we'll still call each other to say goodnight, and ndi nya ko kakauspin sa Ym. Yung una ginawa ko 1 time and since nung ginawa ko yun ang lungkot ng boses niya kaya hindi nako tumawag uli.. sorry! ala lang naisip ko lang kasi malapit na birthday ng baby bro ko, c JD, we used to have plans sa birthday niya eh.

After the night of our cool off I wonder if it is really fate but I saw my grade school crushes.. they still look cute but they are not my type anymore except my former crush in LACO. We went to Jollibee Cityhall with Jen, Edward and Joanna and then I saw him. He have changed a lot, he grew taller, and more handsome(?). Anyway, Jenielle also thinks that he looks better now. Kilig, I dont know if he could still remember me pero masaya..kaso marami siyang kasamang girls tapos mukhang close sila.

Although, he looks better now one thing have never changed from the day I first met him..

HE IS STILL THE GAY I'VE LIKED BEFORE

hahaha..